Monthly favorites- February addition!

A touch late!

Hello lovelies! I have decided to capture each month in a series of answered questions in a post. I will also do a post of a month in photos, to see what things have caught my eye, or memories that have been made each month. I will try to keep up to date with this however most of my months are rather dull... But enough babbling lets get started!

1. what was your favorite moment this month? This month it was my 18th birthday! the weekend before we had a huge party with all the family and a few of my best friends it was far more fun and exciting than i had expected which makes it my favorite moment!

   

   My two best friends! 

2. What was your least favorite moment? Having to complete all my coursework at 1 o'clock in the morning because i had left it til last minute again!
3. What is your favorite purchased item this month? I'm going to have to be a little cheeky with this one as i have two... firstly was a gift from my granddad which was a very delicate necklace of a cross, to bring me luck in the future which is truly beautiful. However, an item i purchased myself would have to be my rose fairy lights which really add something extra to my otherwise dull bedroom! 

   

   Very pretty!

4. What new food have you tried? I have previously tried Sushi before however was put off it in a bad experience... however, when shopping with my sister this month we decided that it was urgent to get some food, and as she does like Sushi i decided i would give it another shot... and adored it!
5. What book have you read and loved? I have honestly... only started reading one book before it went missing! However i adore this book already and it is called "The loveliest chocolate shop in Paris." An amazing read reopened my adoring love for chocolate and my dreams to live in Paris! I recommended it to everyone!

   

   J'aime ce livre!

That's it for February i will probably start to add more questions however i like to keep it short and simple so that i'm not going on about nonsense for hours! Hopefully, now that its March there's a bit more sunshine to inspire new adventures to talk about!

An important first step...

Okay so... this is probably going to be the most difficult post I will write. It shouldn't be but then again, I do tend to overreact. That's why I have decided to get it out of the way now. As i'm sure not many people if any people will read this blog, it feels like a safe place to come out but not... if that makes any sense.

Its time to win this war!

I have already created a post on tumblr on how I realized that i was a lesbian. ( http://ebonysimmonds.tumblr.com/post/70831953858/my-story ) Like many LGBT this was a difficult time and process. Now I'm almost eighteen (one week to go!) I think its time i came out entirely. From my last blog post i said that it was one of my bucket list aims to come out to my family.

To start from the beginning, the first person i came out to was my best friend. She had been there through so much of my mindless nonsense that i had no doubts about telling her at all... or so i thought. I remember planning a day out with her, we both had something to say so it seemed perfect. I remember feeling this twist of excitement and anticipation when i was waiting to leave to meet her. When the time came to tell her... i couldn't bring the words out. I remember the exact moment of walking through the high street and going to tell her. What said instead was "Paige, i am ... hungry. lets go eat."

A failure. However, It was still an amazing time, later on I text her a very long message apologizing for not telling her in person. She told me to stop being silly and was very supportive and more amazing than i had ever expected. That was the moment i realized that there was no need to push myself into telling the world, these things take time and honestly i was pretty proud i had come that far. Later i told my other closest friends and they took it just as well. So, far i haven't had any negative responses, which i can only thank my truly amazing friends for.  

The most amazing best friend!

This doesn't stop the worried thoughts though and as a sufferer of anxiety attacks i still have those tearful moments when i consider telling my parents. I had originally decided to wait until i was away at university to tell them as i felt that the distance would make it easier if anything went wrong or simply so that they can think it all through. Now that I'm not going to university that makes it a little difficult, but this year i have persuaded myself to come out entirely. No matter what way i do it, its time to let myself be who i really am and stop hiding such an important part of myself away.

Inspired by the amazing Kaelyn and Lucy. 
( http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBApzcxOY4b2VZLJcKIqLeA ) a YouTube long distance couple their videos helped me to come to turns with my sexuality. From seeing their strength and love I have finally plucked up the courage to find that someone special.... and believe it or not i think i may have! A lovely beautiful girl, who i had only met recently online has become very special in my heart. This has encouraged me even further to take this important first step into coming out.

The stunning Kaelyn and Lucy!

My 2014 Bucket List.

This new year is a major milestone for me. As my 18th birthday is only a week away, i want to make sure that its a year to remember. Inspired by the beautiful Becca Rose's 2014 Bucket List. ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FM3M_x3alzQ )  To ensure this i have decided my first blog post will be my bucket list...

1. To travel to three new places with friends for the first time.
2. To photograph all my favorite moments of the year.
3. To try as much new foods as possible. (a major foodie!)
4. To come out to my family. (LGBT)
5. To volunteer at an animal shelter.
6. To read a new book every month. (That i wouldn't usually choose)
7. To try my best to move out.
8. To make more of an effort to go out with friends.
9. To build new friendships.
10. To face my fears instead of hiding away from them.
11. Try a new activity every month and write a post about it.
12. To do a blog post at least once every week.
13. To start a YouTube channel exploring a topic i'm passionate about.
14. To exceed my expectations.

Now, these may not seem that big or special, however i hope that these fourteen tasks will help me to become a stronger and happier version of myself. I will probably add to or change this list as the year goes along.